Liquid Confidence.

sorry tumblr i have been busy so i will now catch up on the days i have missed upon this 30 day tumblr challenge.

Day 04: What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05: Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06: Your day, in great detail

so day 4.

what i ate on day 4 was infact just some soup as i had  bad hangover.

day 5 . my deffinition of love.

this is a tough one tbf, because i cant explain what love is, its too complicated. infact thats what love is a complete complicated mixture of emotions. Its like when your with someone you love, you can never imagine your life without them, you constantly get butterflies when your with them, you can be yourself with someone, you share this connection that you dont have with anyone else. I really cant explain it. sometimes love isnt always easy and sometimes it hurts like hell. I can honestly say ive only ever been in love once and it was the greatest experience of my life and has taught me now never to let anyone into my life like that again. love is never the same twice, which is what scares me. i dont think i could see myself being in love with anyone else again but if i am, id make sure id never give it up this time. thats my biggest regret….giving up on love.

day 6. my day in great detail.

ive spent the day with my best friend, i woke up got dressed, got ready went to tesco went to town brought some stockings and suspenders, came home, ate dinner, played guitar hero, drank alcohol and now im chilling after having an amazing shower. preparing myself for my spraytan tomorrow and a hectic drunken weekend.

day 3 of the tumblr 30 day challenge.

my parents…

Well. its a wrong time to talk about my parents as id probably end up ranting about them for kicking me out. but i dont hate them for it. I do love them, but i cannot stand my dad. so lets start with my mom…

My mother is an amazing lady, she deals with way too much shit in her life and has to put up with me and my sister constantly, shes always been there to hold me up through the good times and the bad and i cant thank her enough. she was one of the people who stopped me killing myself when i went through a bad time. i wouldnt be here without her. she doesnt have a high opinion of herself and she should because she is amazing. she really tries her best every single day and i love her more than anything.

my dad, is a great guy, and i really dont get along with him half of the time. we clash way too much, too many strong opinions and different sense of humours. I think hes a complete jerk at the moment. but hes taught me alot in life, i have alot to thank him for.

I am lucky, alot more lucky than other people. because i do have great parents, its just a shame we dont get along all the time.

day 2 of the tumlr 30 day thing..

your first love in great detail….

My first love, well i dont know where to begin, we met in september 2007, was together for 3-4 months, broke up, didnt speak for 10months then one day ran into each other on a day out in birmingham, we got back together and were together for 2 years from october 2008 - 2010. We had an amazing relationship, pretty much perfect. but everything happens for a reason and people change. I remember the first time we met, the first time we kissed, the first time he told me he loved me after 2 months of being back together, all the house parties, all the gigs, all the holidays, all the weekends away from brum, the drives, the train journeys, the band practises, the pub, drunk times, our families meeting, the memories ill always have and theyll never dissapear. He’ll never understand the influence he had on my life and i dont ask anything else from him anymore. I wish we could be close friends but certain people make that too difficult and because i cant be arsed with immature bitching i just let it happen that way.. even though im completely happy for him and hope he has a great life. i will never wish anything bad upon him, his family or his decisions in life. one day i will have another love, as good or even better than this. but i wouldnt change what happened. past is the past.

Day one of this tumlr 30day challenge…. Introduce yourself.

My names Terri Evans. Im 20 years old. I have no self confidence. I have been through alot in the past 10 months than i have in all of my 20years. Ive dealt with heartbreak, loss, depression, failure, ive been homeless, an alcoholic, done drugs. My parents pretty much kicked me out and alot of my family now hate me, but my nan and my friends i owe alot to and without them id probably be dead. I have an obsession with Oli sykes and Josh franceschi. I love pop punk music more than anything else. I love being with my best friends and being drunk. I spend most of my weekends at uprawr, dancing and drinking and not giving a shit. I enjoy being single way too much, I dont trust guys, I dont believe in love anymore, and I dont like most girls. I have alot of anger issues. Im a complicated person, I love my life alot right now. I hate fake people. Dont judge me if you dont know me, there is only 4 people who know the real me and theyre my best friends. and dont judge me on this post.